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The story of my

  Indigenous history shared

  With audience after audience

  Burnt into my memory

  We’ve been here since time immemorial

  It means—time, so long ago

  That people have no memory

  Or knowledge of it

  Filling out my law school application

  How long has your family lived in Saskatchewan?

  I pause for a moment

  Then write

  Since time immemorial

  What would have been other options?

  Since Saskatchewan became a province

  Before Saskatchewan was, we were

  I was stumped but,

  I got in anyway and nobody questioned my answer.

  from Alaska Quarterly Review

  YESENIA MONTILLA a brief meditation on breath

  i have diver’s lungs from holding my

  breath for so long. i promise you

  i am not trying to break a record

  sometimes i just forget to

  exhale. my shoulders held tightly

  near my neck, i am a ball of tense

  living, a tumbleweed with steel-toed

  boots. i can’t remember the last time

  i felt light as dandelion. i can’t remember

  the last time i took the sweetness in

  & my diaphragm expanded into song.

  they tell me breathing is everything,

  meaning if i breathe right i can live to be

  ancient. i’ll grow a soft furry tail or be

  telekinetic something powerful enough

  to heal the world. i swear i thought

  the last time i’d think of death with breath

  was that balmy day in july when the cops

  became a raging fire & sucked the breath

  out of Garner; but yesterday i walked

  38 blocks to my father’s house with a mask

  over my nose & mouth, the sweat dripping

  off my chin only to get caught in fabric & pool up

  like rain. & i inhaled small spurts of me, little

  particles of my dna. i took into body my own self

  & thought i’d die from so much exposure

  to my own bereavement—they’re saying

  this virus takes your breath away, not

  like a mother’s love or like a good kiss

  from your lover’s soft mouth but like the police

  it can kill you fast or slow; dealer’s choice.

  a pallbearer carrying your body without a casket.

  they say it’s so contagious it could be quite

  breathtaking. so persistent it might as well

  be breathing    down your neck—

  from Poem-a-Day

  KAMILAH AISHA MOON Irony

  It would be now when you feel

  want is no longer your enemy,

  that your body & soul would kneel.

  O it would be now, when you feel

  you’ve culled joy, seized a new zeal

  that Death grabs you, fingers icy.

  It would be now, when you feel!

  “Want” is no longer your enemy.

  from The American Poetry Review

  STANLEY MOSS A Smiling Understanding

  There is an understanding,

  a smiling understanding,

  between orchards and orchestras.

  Jazz and Bach are fertilizers,

  something extra. Trees are much older than music

  and poetry. They have bodies and souls,

  godlike identities. Trees are choirs,

  basso profundos, coloraturas, mezzo sopranos.

  I live with music and trees, orchards of music,

  woodwinds and sextets. I sing

  the “I don’t lie to myself” blues.

  I learn from my suffering to understand

  the suffering of others. I climb musical scales.

  Trees have an embouchure. I’m a sapling.

  Breath and wind blow through me.

  This winter is a coda of falling leaves,

  sequoias and maples Louis Armstrong.

  I have a band of tree brothers and sisters,

  we are not melancholy babies.

  I age like a rock, not a rocking chair.

  A rock does not wear spectacles, hearing aids,

  or use a walking stick. It is dangerous

  for anyone to call me “young fellow.”

  from The Nation

  DG NANOUK OKPIK When White Hawks Come

  I dreamt   the spirit of the codfish:

  in rafters of the mind;

  fly out into the winter’s

  blue night;

  mirth off alder   tendrils sashay;

  while I set up

  my winter tent;

  four panels long—beams suspend

  I sit & pull blubber strips   aged in a poke bag;

  I’m shadowing the sun   as a new moon icicle

  time melts when white   hawks come.

  from Poem-a-Day

  CECILY PARKS December

  It was never supposed to snow

  here, and yet

  it was snowing, big flakes tearing down

  over the Edwards Plateau like the sky

  had crumbled. My friend and I drank

  cold wine while our children played

  inside with masks

  on a big white bed. Another afternoon,

  my daughters sang a song about lords

  and camp that I didn’t

  understand, but they didn’t like me

  to ask what it meant, and

  instead of answering rolled down the hill

  in their pajamas. Their

  first secret. Then:

  first bright-red manicure, first

  chipped nail, first note taped to the door

  saying don’t come in. I went

  to the museum instead

  and stared a long time

  at the draft on which Anne Sexton

  had scrawled “At last I found you, you funny

  old story-poem!” and felt a happy

  envy, happy for her

  but not for me.

  Then: first time on ice skates,

  chick-chicking around the rink, a string

  of beads draped over one daughter’s head

  and my gold necklace still tangled

  by the sink. Snow

  rolled over the prairie and held

  the fence shadows when we threw

  golden hay to the ponies who lived outside

  all winter. The black-and-white barn cat

  was still alive

  and ate nervously in the garage,

  where snow chains glittered on the floor. One night

  I told a restaurant it was my husband’s birthday

  and they gave us a sundae. It was

  his birthday, and at this point

  we were far from the Edwards Plateau.

  I can’t remember when we left for that trip but I know

  on the last day of December we had to go home

  and in the airport, waiting for the plane, I arranged

  our winter coats so that mine

  was holding everyone else’s.

  from The New Yorker

  PATRICK PHILLIPS Elegy with Table Saw & Cobwebs

  Rummaging the wood-rack

  I pull a cracked

  old shingle off the stack:

  a scrap

  on which at

  some point, with his flat

  knife-whittled pencil,

  my old friend Ollie scratched

  5/32 + 1/2—

  a kind of riddle now, a workman’s

  artifact,

  unnoticed since that

  year the cancer cells attacked—

  since whatever it

  once meant,

  whatever part it

  played in some project,

  went wit
h him

  into the flames

  & ash.

  Friends,

  we die like that:

  the whole starry sky goes black

  while these little

  nothings last,

  while these spiders in the rafters

  go on clutching

  their white sacks:

  whispering & yet & yet

  & yet & yet

  until I dust the fading rune

  & put it back.

  from New England Review

  ROGER REEVES For Black Children at the End of the World—and the Beginning

  You are in the black car burning beneath the highway

  And rising above it—not as smoke

  But what causes it to rise. Hey, Black Child,

  You are the fire at the end of your elders’

  Weeping, fire against the blur of horse, hoof,

  Stick, stone, several plagues including time.

  Chrysalis hanging on the bough of this night

  And the burning world: Burn, Baby, burn.

  Anvil and iron be thy name, yea though ye may

  Walk among the harnessed heat and huntsmen

  Who bear their masters’ hunger for paradise

  In your rabbit-death, in the beheading of your ghost.

  You are the healing snake in the heather

  Bursting forth from your humps of sleep.

  In the morning, your tongue moves along the earth

  Naming hawk sky; rabbit run; your tongue,

  Poison to the filthy democracy, to the gold-

  Domed capitols where the Guard in their grub-

  Worm-colored uniforms cling to the blades of grass—

  Worm on the leaf, worm in the dust, worm,

  Worm made of rust: sing it with me,

  Dragon of Insurmountable Beauty.

  Black Child, laugh at the men with their hoofs

  and borrowed muscle, their long and short guns,

  The worm of their faces, their casket ass-

  Embling of the afternoon, left over leaves

  From last year’s autumn scrapping across their boots;

  Laugh, laugh at their assassins on the roofs

  (For the time of the assassin is also the time of hysterical laughter).

  Black Child, you are the walking-on-of-water

  Without the need of an approving master.

  You are in a beautiful language.

  You are what lies beyond this kingdom

  And the next and the next and fire. Fire, Black Child.

  from Poem-a-Day

  ED ROBERSON For Air

  There is a place in me for air  as part

  of me  of a piece  with how I live.

  And I am in it making sense like a cart

  we are each other’s horse before.  given.

  loaded with flowers.  Both

  our breaths  a fragrance  of sound wave and beat.

  word of the heart.  The music goes

  on to explain it  is moved by the feet

  taking the place apart  into other places to see.

  where is the surface the air impresses upon

  what forms bounce into shape and form

  patterns of doing. the way they do that they be.

  themselves  ourselves  scattered across the drumhead

  shod with a vibration of the unsaid.

  geometries of air  shod with a vibration

  of the unsaid  dance out their ordered sentences

  to freedom  the felt articulated into action

  a balletic leap  that seeing  trails resemblances

  of not knowing to knowing  of silence

  to song  of being bound to flight.

  A place in the air achieved  space—

  not even aware the speaking might

  be music.  Or that the place of air in us

  might be singing  the fragrance of the flowers

  already worded  in stone the airy cupolas

  of temples lifted off into the idea of showers

  of bubbled light  and the poem as the champagne

  of what the body has bottled in its strain.

  from Poetry

  MARGARET ROSS Blood

  Thirty white people wearing white and posing

  by the sea. Actually, two of them

  wear blue, one of the brothers’ wives

  who’s always trying to distance herself

  from the family, and one of her daughters.

  It will ruin the picture but better to pretend

  nobody notices. First the group shot

  then the turns for individual families

  who can choose to sit together in the sand

  or jump over the surf in unison, grinning.

  Every other year, this reunion. All my life.

  The same photographer shoots it

  wearing her son’s old cargo shorts.

  Something bad had happened to her, maybe

  I wasn’t told. And it made her

  not as you’d expect a tragedy would

  make someone but cheerful, capable.

  Last year, she got married.

  Last year, whatever I was doing

  on the beach, I was thinking

  about a man. When he was

  with me, he was cheating on the woman

  he was cheating on his girlfriend with.

  But the woman was going to

  have a baby and he told me he

  was leaving me and the girlfriend both

  to be with her, it.

  The little cousins walked

  the sand at night with flashlights

  to detect the crabs they shoveled

  into plastic pails they’d carry out as far

  as they could walk, then dump there.

  The one aunt who was single

  would describe herself as married

  to Christ. “And we have fights

  like any couple.” When a cousin

  turned thirteen, she took them

  on a beach walk to explain chastity.

  She was a Shakespeare scholar

  who discovered in the tragedies

  some details at the ends which indicated

  wretched characters were born again.

  Some things everyone agreed on, like

  you had to justify a garment praised

  by saying how cheap it was.

  In other cases, no one felt the same.

  When giving punishments, for instance,

  whether somebody who’d been bad

  should sit alone reflecting in a room

  or apologize to the group and whether

  or not to soothe somebody

  who had torn their clothes off, sobbing.

  The cottages we rented on the shore

  weren’t part of any family’s real life.

  They were designed to feel

  they had no history. It was comfortable.

  Even the plates and cups we used

  were all disposable, though the silverware

  was metal. Bright flags of beach towels

  draped over the porch railing.

  Standing by them, you could barely see

  the water for the roofs of other rentals.

  When they were sunburned,

  the aunts drove to a market

  selling handmade soap and straw hats, delicate

  cheap jewelry. An uncle said

  the site had been a slave market.

  His wife said please don’t tell the kids that.

  They lived, like most of us, in the middle

  of the country, two days drive away.

  He brought from home a giant pool float

  so we could ride the ocean. Over and over, waves

  shot it forward and you fell off screaming

  or kept clinging to it somehow, screaming.

  We called it Party Barge and marveled daily


  at its not puncturing.

  Each year, the pictures taken on the beach

  would turn out brighter, more

  garish than the twilit shore

  remembered. Inland, one year

  hung beside the other, framed, detached,

  as if history were comprised of do-overs.

  The dress code always white, white

  and tan, and some of the same

  shirts and dresses would appear again.

  Before the reunion, I was

  with the man at my parents’ apartment

  on a bed that used to be my sister’s.

  Next to it, the built-in shelves

  still crowded with dolls she liked

  to line up on the floor and count.

  When I got home, he said

  the woman lost the baby

  so he felt free to love me.

  from The Yale Review

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